Hello to my brave, courageous and empowered being of the heart-centered world.
Ramadan Kareem to all those celebrating..
Before I begin, let us recall the love for the Divine; Allah, God; the Creator and take out a moment to express just how incredible our bodies are. To be able to keep our fasts while living in a time of adversity is no mere task. It does, however, encourage us with bravery to face our deepest, darkest fears.
As you unfold yourself to Allah these next 29 days, acknowledge not only the physical but also be brave to address the emotional addictions that you may need to reassess within your life. What emotional addictions you ask, here are some that I have chosen to release from my mind during this time of rebirth:
PERFECTIONISM, HARD WORK & WORKAHOLISM...
Your fasts are a reflection of how you restore your well-being, nourish your soul and body.
The elements of Holistic health signify the importance of assessing not one but all parts of your existence. As someone who is passionate about learning more about the soul's journey on earth, let us begin by bringing in a protective white light around ourselves, our homes so that each of our energy's is protected by the Divine Himself.
This reflection is a share of personal experiences, words of shared wisdom and of a Muslim BIPOC woman who is on her journey to finding reconnection with her essence.
This my friends is a space of unveiling through creativity while addressing spirituality, holistic well-being and questioning the very meaning of 'belonging'.
If you'd like to continue reading, please do leave a comment at the end of the blog to share your thoughts on your self-compassionate accounts of addressing your own emotional addictions.
Written by: Saira Hussain
Founder of Breath of Henna, Love Letter Community
A Self-worth and mental health advocate.
Artist, Holistic health practitioner, Energy worker
My addiction with perfectionism turned into workaholism and a lack of self-acknowledgement..MY STORY.
Who but HE knows that what we have found in this Dunya is temporary and nothing will be taken to the grave..
I found myself questioning this often until I could no longer manage the voice of my inner critic ( the voice of societal confinements, patriarchy and colonialism). This led to me SCREAMING OUT LOUD, ENOUGH! I made time to inquire with myself, with Allah (swt). Mein kaise is soch ko badloo? (eng. how do I alternate this way of thinking) in association with running away, feelings of suppression, not having enough or will I even survive?) I allowed these questions to marinate over-time. Where? In my beautiful mind. I was unaware of how these thoughts would impact my well-being till I began to feel physical pain in areas of my head, neck, shoulders and abdomen. I was diagnosed with Bell's palsy in March 2017, which was a blessing in disguise.
RAMADAN DAY 2:
What we seek to have and to hold does not belong to us...someone said this to me once and it stuck like date honey welded into an old walnut-floor crack. This is a hard one to grasp. I never planned to express myself with owning nothing because I was always taught to 'gain, win, accomplish, do more, do better' so that I could receive, buy things that I wanted or so-called 'desired' at the time.
So how did the things I received through achievements (documents, titles attained through social work, social media, publications) increase my sense of worthiness?
Most difficult form of self-acceptance in my existence thus far...
Psychologically they impacted my choices and feelings but spiritually and energetically, they did not help elevate me towards my path, my purpose. I needed answers.
This led me to addressing my brain health while speaking to my anatomy professor and emotional intelligence coach. How did my amygdala choose to store memories associated with - low self-esteem, heart break, conflicts with my father over the events where I was loved, play-time with my sisters, sleepovers and the achievements I mentioned above when doing humanitarian work, let alone my own wedding day?
The answer to this, OUR EMOTIONS ARE CONTROLLED BY OUR THOUGHTS & our thoughts are prompted by our endocrine system - yes hormones! This is how my earth-bound, emotional hunger developed into 'perfectionism'.. which stemmed from FEAR itself. This connection made me want to create a blueprint of my thoughts and so I did this through 'Art Therapy' (print collection seen below).
Are you stressed? Are you overwhelmed by not ever having had the time to look within?
Is the reflection piece too much? Hold onto your bravery, we're going deeper. You're here and that's what matters - that you looked within.